Monday, March 19, 2012

My Maladies

I got a crook in my neck that runs down my spine
out through my feet in a perfect straight line
It moves when I move get worse when
I try to find comfort in the way that I lie.

And I'm tryin' to keep from cryin'

It's dark and it's sneaky like a spider and her web
and I'm only a fly caught in her thread, left voiceless
and trapped, my heart heavy with dread,
death making me try to recall what it was God had said.

And I try to pretend that this silk is my bed

My jaw needs to crack it's stuck in my skull.
Got a lump in my throat the size of a ball.
all the buildings around me seem uncomfortably tall;
when I look back from where I was I see
I've come no where at all.

It's not the road that's too long, it's that my steps are too small.

Monday, March 12, 2012

I AM GOING COMPLETELY INSANE. even now, I can’t seem to rhyme “me” with “me” and all that’s left of “me” is a body full of chicken noodle soup and boiled brains Stay safe and stay sane. stay quiet and keep your head down low. dry toast and low fat butter. I want real butter and I want it now. I want to swim in my music. I want to swallow my scars and hide them in art. I want to feel free some day and, I want inspiration to keep the wanting at bay.